Where sun rises, where stars fall.

我并不认为很早就在社会上混的人生活经验就比我多，这个想法很狭隘。

教育改变一个人，不是单纯从知识架构上，而是包含了人性的净化和提升。以前总是想，那些初中高中都没读的孩子早早的迈向社会，摸爬滚打了十几年而我还在学校啃着书本为作业孜孜不倦，这种感觉很迷惘，不好形容。但是身边出现的人越来越多，路过的人形形色色，才发现真正值得的，还是学习。有时候会发愁没钱生活，这是很现实的，但是也很短暂，劳动总能换来物质回报，而修养和素质并不会随着财富的积累而提高。刚出国那些日子，很傻很天真，偶尔会自负清高，有丝毫的优点都要表现出来，时间证明那是幼稚的。来到墨尔本，我把姿态放到最低，微笑，装傻，谦卑，虽然不像年轻的自己，但是心中隐忍的一切相信总会慢慢浮现出来。身边的朋友有的自恋有的自傲，很多时候我只是简单一笑，年轻不就是这样么，再过两年你我必然会不一样。出国时间越久，朋友越少，我很珍惜身边的同学，朋友，因为就这几年，走完这段通宵奋斗的日子你我就不知道何时再见一面了。离别其实很简单，越来越简单。从重庆车站离开的那一刻哭的像瀑布，抱着兄弟不舍得走。从马来离开的时候一次又一次的聚会虽然没有哭，但是也感慨万千。 带着很多别人没有经历过的感情来到新的国家，我相信这一天还是会再来，所以那天来临前，真的需要真心对待每一个朋友，一些日子短暂的出现，可能就不会再见。

但身边的你们，没有这份感情，所以有时候冲动，有时候淡然，有时候的不屑肯定会让自己后悔。

就是这样的心情

What makes sun rise from very my window? The lights cast on my face every 5am without respect at all. Life's become much more bored after first few days here, and it trends to be even more.

This city suites seniors perfectly, so i do hope stay here at my late age with someone close. Everyone has a big city dream since young, so do i, but, what the funny thing is, should i say i have completed it as this stage? The inconvenience drives me crazy every time i couldn't even buy an instant noodle downstairs, whereby the convenient store should be...OH,,,sorry i lost my patience...

Studying is sort of an attitude. Who said that? The attitude is trying to calculate the energy and don't let them waste even a bit more. I always spend a whole afternoon in library with nothing accomplished, with no sense of why the time just disappears, with a big ambition but finally lost...aih, attitude, since when i fail to keep my positive attitude...

祝自己迈入一个全盛时代！

有时候有人说留学生是在背叛祖国崇洋媚外。国外真的比国内好吗？我真是懒得作任何解释。

我记得第一年去马来西亚是在2007年12月底，上了2个月的课就过年了，那个春节是第一次孤身在外，春节那天完全没有意识到原来有生以来还可以这么寂寞。我们20个左右的中国人聚在一起好不容易找了一家除夕晚上不关店的华人餐馆，去超吃买了从来没喝过的洋酒和可乐。那个餐馆就像中国的私人小型停车库，店门是个巨大的卷帘门，走进去就是连街的厅，除了店主一家人没有任何人，我们在门口露天支了记得是2张大圆桌，晚上的旷野真的是静，旁边都是人高的野草灌木，没有人放炮，也没有花灯和春晚，算上酒我们花了快2000人民币，量很小很小，也不好吃，可乐兑着洋酒一杯一杯的傻笑，然后吃了没10分钟就有人哭着去旁边蹲着给家里打电话，电话哪里那么容易打通啊，打十遍能通就不错了，然后一个接一个。我开始微醉了才有了强烈的对家的想念，蹲在草堆里忍着沉重给家里打电话说我现在在外面跟同学一起过年，什么都有吃的很好诸如此类，然后竟然给从来不会去主动打电话的亲戚家，同学，朋友，老朋友，现在都不会再去打一次的老朋友挨个打电话，就是因为心里很空，想听电话那头的声音罢了。那顿饭吃了很久，快到晚上12点的时候我们才开始往学校走，路上没有一盏灯，去过马来西亚的人应该知道，如果不是市中心的话，路边肯定是一片树林或者草堆，我们就沿着马路往前走，这怎么会是过年的故事呢，从头到尾都一阵荒凉。到了宿舍大家也就分开了，我记得我去房间拿洗澡的东西然后去洗澡间洗澡，隔间有个人正在给家里打电话，刚听到他说第一句话我的眼泪哗的往下流，然后就彻底崩溃了打开淋浴头在里面哭。

第二年就完全是另一个情况了，可能是呆久了麻木了，一点都不想家，几个好朋友在一次吃自己煮的火锅，人不多但是开开心心，然后楼上有人买了无线网卡，我们就跑上去看赵本山的小品，哈哈哈的大笑虽然一点都没意思。给家里的电话还是打不通，信号太忙要一遍一遍的拨，终于通了但是说了两句话又断掉，而且电话那头的炮声震耳欲聋，说话的声音像蚊子嗡嗡。吃完了饭就回宿舍睡觉，又是个安静的除夕。

第三年更没有了庆祝的欲望，恨不得直接睡过去不吃饭了。春节对我们留学生的生活里仿佛完全失踪了，虽然学校为华人新年放了一周的假，但那是华人的新年，中国留学生只是无聊的在学校睡觉罢了，没有电视没有兄弟姐妹也不用走亲戚拜年拿红包。碍于形式我们还是凑在一起吃了个饭，这次一桌的人就更少了，而且很悲哀的把吃饭地点放在了女生宿舍楼下的一个小桌子上，我们自己做饭炒菜喝可乐。旁边用两个板凳摞在一起当桌子，放一台笔记本在上面收看网络直播的春晚，但是马来西亚的网速是可以让人扼腕的，断断续续的看了一会然后就被完全忽略了。

我们一直在试图找到家乡的年味所以对唯一有代表性的春晚情有独钟，但是我觉得还是有些伤感和遗憾。殊不知我们在国外唯一的寄托就是中国，而中国可曾对我们有任何的眷恋。

我记得2008年的汶川地震让国人一片惊慌和团结，身在国外的我们更是心寄灾区。马来西亚的华人联合会筹集了大量的赈灾款，理工大学的华人也有捐款捐物。

2008北京奥运开幕式那天晚上我们聚在一起，在华人露天大排档的电视机前面守着，催着让他们换台看直播，手里捏着五星红旗。升旗仪式很动容，然后起立摸着心口大声的唱国歌，旁边的人像看外星人似的笑我们这些留洋的激动的中国人，因为他们不懂，在国内的你们也不懂。还有一些同学特地定了旅馆的房间收看开幕式，因为学校看不到电视。

北京奥运羽毛球男单林丹对阵李宗伟，这是马来西亚第一次有拿奥运金牌的机会，学校的大荧幕终于可以看到直播了，还是露天的饭桌，我们做在最前面一排，这场林丹竟然如此的神勇，打的李宗伟像个龟儿子，赢了以后我们潇洒的离桌，那种骄傲的感觉溢于言表。

坐taxi的时候司机会问中国现在拿了几个金牌了，告诉他有50个了，看到那种敬佩的眼神又是一阵骄傲。

很多时候心中装着中国，作为中国人在国外时时刻刻都充斥着强烈的爱国热忱，那种赤子的爱国心唯有出国在外才能体会，当你身边都是各色不同国家的人的时候，我就不再是我，而是中国。但是如此这般热爱的祖国真的对我们也倾其所有吗。

我不知道，我不知道有没有什么所谓的对留学生的保护，无非就是对不利消息的隐瞒和置之不理，这些也能理解，毕竟留学生那么多不可能什么事都能帮忙解决。但是请不要忽略我们对祖国的感情，说在外面学习就是不爱国是非常可笑的，在日本上学就怎样怎样更是荒唐，没有人知道每个留学生在国外的生活是多么艰苦，任何事情都要自己去处理去面对不是谁都能坚持的。移民也是一样，换了护照不是换了血，相反会因为身为一个别国的异类而更把中国放在心上，做这些也只是出于无奈，如果中国能为下一代提供更好的福利，为每一个人都能享有平等优质的对待而努力，又怎么会有人拼死拼活的往外跑呢。留学只是逃避高考的独木桥，移民也是逃避贫富差距的无可奈何。

在国外过年气氛不同，因为是一个人，在家过年突然没有了一个人的清净，倒是很想躲开。看来年纪大了，受不了吵吵闹闹了吧。

本命年本来想弄个红绳什么的，也懒得搞，没准墨尔本有呢，嘿嘿。

一下床就看到窗户外面一片白茫茫，再高度的近视也知道是下雪了，圣诞节前一天，突然有些没回神，不记得上次见到这样密密麻麻的大雪是什么时候了。被大雪困在火车也只是积雪罢了，现在纷纷扰扰的在眼前让我一下子清醒很多。接到妈妈的电话是起来半个多小时以后吧，她说宝你起来没有外面下了好大的雪，我说看见了，她说大雪给你送礼物呢有两个好事你猜是什么，我说你去买围巾了吧，第二个呢，签证下来了？对了。一下子心情顿然的开朗，终于把事情都搞完了，两个月折腾的实在是有些沉重。

我以为这次在家能痛快的放个长假，但还是过的不那么容易，毕竟妈妈整天在家看着我打电脑很不爽，天天催着让我做点什么，就是看不惯我在家里休息。我为什么要去做点什么？好不容易从学校逃回来，从作业堆里逃出来，还要怎么的？没办法，天天在耳边嚷，我能怎么办呢。去办了健身卡，隔天去一次。连这样都不行，说卡白办了，把钱退掉，这样隔三差五的去还不如不去。我跟我妈脾气一样，很容易急容易上火，小架不吵是不可能的，但是一天半天的也就没事了。于是后来又开始画画，开始看书，当然还是因为耳朵磨出了茧。这样还不够，还要去见这个，买那个，总之很多事烦的我头要爆炸。

很久不在家里，真的不习惯了，有个人管着就受不了，我是真正的意识到跟任何人在一起时间久就要出事，朝夕相处是我的大忌，也许单身公寓我会住一辈子吧。

An angel takes my dream up to her wings.

I am proud to say that University of Melbourne has accepted me to be one drop of her fresh blood in 2011,which i would say is a great gife for myself especially for my parents before the Chinese New Year.

Some people do not think Australia is a proper country to study in,in terms of the education quality as well as the security problems these years,however,they do ignore there are 8 Universities in Australia stably keep standing within the world rank of top 100 good Universities,on which list the U of Melbourne has been ranking at 36 for many years.It is hardly imagine one day i could be one of her members, but it does come true today.

I love my mother,who gives me the motivation to take this chance and always supports me on whatever i am going to do. Thanks for my father,who works hard everyday and pays everything for me without any unwillingness,but to whom i've never said I LOVE YOU.

I am on the way moving forward with the accompany of someone who is really important.I wouldn't have been as who i am without the encouragement,thank you very much, i come to know what i am made of.

I liked here, but now it seems too hard to say so. I have always been satisfied with what i've got here since the first step i stepped on this land,however,things changed in a way as i didn't expect. I am trying not to judge anyone anything any unpleasant matter,sadly it is not that easy.

Maybe my heart has gone away,but it is not the point.

Originally i thought,ok,maybe people around me cannot represent all in this country. Finally i have to admit i am wrong. Writting till here probably i need to give some examples supporting what i complain of,but for the sake of courtesy i would rather not say one word more.

why would i hardly fall asleep? Im looking forward tomorrow too much and afraid to face either good or bad news. Lazy to explain..

Three years, I study just right near you,but never seen your look. Thanks to the Studio Trip intention, i've got the chance to fight myself going to apply the visa. That's nasty, after twice a week visit, but worthy.

I've heard the street in Singapore is clear, and it really is. To this point, Shanghai should better learn.

Street art is quite often found there. This is to what extent I like Singapore more.

Singapore loves to announce what what is top, No.1, first, best in the world. The first night zoo in the world, the largest bird zoo in the world, the highest ferriswheel in the world, and now it's building the highest swimming pool. And consequently, the Singaporen likes to prondly announce everything there is the best. That is interesting when we ask the Inn's boss how long it will take us to walk through the Zoo, and the boss says I'm not saying our zoo is larger than yours in China,however, i would say it is big enough to take you at least a whole day, and that directly leads to our original plan going to change. Luckly we don't. Actually it only takes us 2 hours more. I don't know what they are prond of....But honestly, the design idea and animals show is really amazing, i have to say that..

God,,,,,when you give me a son..

Too sleepy to stand any more

The Singapore international garden festival is not that grand as any expo held in China, but i like the way they do, it's successfully telling people what the purpose is,not just a government investment, but a public knowledge advertisement.

Kind of monkey i don't remember their name.

Cute Otter~

What is he eating on earth??

Wowwwww A sleeping white tiger

Embarrassing Kangaroo

Elephant's foot size

Smooth sealion show

Red hair girl

Polar bear, i don't think it is cool enough here

Africa deer maybe

Zeebra...this guy i know

Mr. Big mouth

Classic Squirrel pose

ermmm,,,Only exist in Malaya zone, it says so

doll..cute, vivid, good-to-touch and high price

3 dimension signage, kinda creative design

Sexy half-naked wild men with their fire

Ahhh   Garden salad with chicken.

Somebody says it's tasty

Turkey chicken Pasta with cheeze, but where is cheeze?

A white poor guy with a big flower boy

Singapore is hiding more i need go further explore, but what a pity the visa is only valid in 30 days, sad.. to this point, a developed country's passport is more attractive. I think this is why people trying to change their nationality, more convenient and respectful. So please don't say, you , you and you are so xenocentric, actually,the one who says like this is someone who doesn't know the outside world, believe me.

Does anyone understand?

im pretty sure none.

I admit Penang and Kuala lumper are the only two places which could be called urban area and considered as involving in urban planning in Malaysia. However, we as urban design studio students this semester have to visit certain relevant place for the purpose of digging actual meaning of urban vocabulary. So the first stop is JB downtown, following with Singapore, Segmet and Penang island. 

The below picture is exactly showing how busy around the CIP (customs to Singapore) is, probably we can find such grand motocycle parking situation in Malaysia and other southeast Asian countries.

It is raining when we visit here. Everthing looks old but quite clear. This is generally what Malaysian buildings looking like - the colorful finishes, multiple ventilation outlets and not that high skylines.

JB is not so modern as KL, but the heritage here is one thing sparks in mind, at least it is old enough for anyone to recall...

When suddenly escape from crowded China commercial street, I actually feel a bit yearning...

The greenery is the characteristics and signiture in this country. Palms, trees, shrubs and groundcover cover here and there, and the weather benefits from them greatly, in another word, although the sunshine is sufficient everyday the green patterns serve as good cooling systems during daytime. This is what Shijiazhuang should learn now!!

Seoul Garden steam pot restaurant locates in the city square.

This is the second time we six classmates seat here having lunch, no, it is lunch+dinner actually. You could not imagine how horrible the way we eat, if you have a brother who is just released by terrorist then you will know it ..

They say it is the last time to have lunch together, but i do not think so...even i do not know where my next stop is...so please do not say so~~

Time goes so fast, i nearly forget i am 23yo this year. What a crucial world, gives us so much, finally takes it away

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看这篇文章的留学生们，
你是在美国，英国，加拿大，澳洲，德国，法国，西班牙，新加坡，还是瑞士？
你的partner在哪里
隔的是太平洋还是大西洋,或者整整一块欧亚大陆?
我们的距离，不是几个小时的飞机,火车，长途汽车可以解决的

是半年回一次国才可以见到他/她吗?甚至一年?
或者在欧洲的这一个,等着在北美/澳洲的那一个,凑着两个人的假期,盼圣诞,盼暑假
一次次的跑中介,跑使馆,确认自己的护照VISA怎样去那个国家,
提前一年,半年定好机票,然后兴奋的算着天数，
一有时间就会对相见的那几天充满各式的想象，
购物的时候会想着穿这条裙子见他应该不错吧，
喝酒的时候会想到少点一杯，让她不要对我的啤酒肚失望，
吃着经济舱没味道的PASTA,脚申不直的坐8个小时,
想方设法空出那些天的时间，检查好车况，定住的地方，设计旅行的路线，
然后守着相机里的照片和几件纪念品又过半年，一年。

这一年，半年里，每次有小吵，小闹，又会忐忑的害怕几个月后的机票带来的是一场单人旅行，这样的状况又是非常真切的发生在我们的身上
有的人会退票,有的还是会义无反顾的飞过去


男生们有没有不经意的一次次进出Tiffany或者Cartier的专卖，开始存关于小圆圈的两个人的未来。


在浦东国际机场，在北京T3，在香港
丢过护照，遗失过行李的我们，最怕的还是登机的最初那个安检通道，转身say bye以后，又是几百天只能对着电脑的想念。

手机，电脑，PSP，TOUCH，一切能设置桌面的东西，可能都是那一位的照片，
在SHARE ROOM熬夜写论文的时候看
在去学校的火车上看
在打工间隙偷偷从制服口袋里掏出来看看
QQ,MSN,SKYPE变得更加意义非凡，签手机最看重的是国际话费的套餐


大片首映的时候他/她是和别人一起看,哪怕你在NYU念导演,又能怎样
他/她发烧的时候,肚子痛的时候,鼻子堵的时候,头晕的时候,哪怕你念的是UW医科PhD也会感觉无能为力
情人节的时候,他/她生日的时候,哪怕你是在瑞士或者澳洲念最好的酒店管理,一张小桌子,一支蜡烛几朵花几盘菜的服务,也提供不了.

这种比例尺动辄就是1比N个0的距离,让你见识了几次分手了?
飞LONDONG的飞机上整整哭完那十几个小时,
飞CHICAGO的飞机上一篇一篇重读再撕掉几年的日记
飞Melbourne的飞机上要杯酒,一点一点往自己前一天才纹的那个人的名字上面抹
飞BNE的飞机上听了整整8个小时的《转机》
......
这些,都是我和我散落世界的朋友经历的,
好吧,地球是圆的,距离哪里是问题
这三年四年以后,他/她,陪过我们走完这段没工作没股票没车没房没社会经验的海白菜时代,然后呢?
是让他/她继续等你一年两年MASTER吗?
是想留下来移民吗?告诉他/她你不回去了,
是一定要回老爸的公司不能和她呆在国外了吗
或者你要留澳,她/他要留美之类的.
在或者,她被身边意气风发,体贴入微的一个优秀同学拐走了
又能说什么呢?
该牵她过马路的时候,该帮他准备早餐的时候
该为她撑伞的时候,该照顾他喝酒的时候


我们没得选的错过了太多时候
如果还有人一直陪着,在坚守这份感情,那那位海白菜该是多好的运气啊
出国以后,看到LV,GUCCI,DIOR变便宜了,但是于青春时代本该信手拈来的爱情追求却贵得不是我们省吃俭用打工存钱可以负担的.
身边来来往往各种肤色各种面具的人,家族企业,父母期望,自己的事业,拿身份......
于留学生,爱情刷卡的时候,我们只能选credit,不能选saving的.

我们经历过一个人的生活训练，寂寞孤独的心理磨砺，世界的视野，一流的学校，我们很好了吗？至少对于那个还愿意不计时间空间和我们在一起的那个人，我们不够的还好多。好好珍惜，哪怕在他/她离开之前,少给点伤害
不要SUPERMAN，BATMAN，SPIDERMAN那样让每个人都爱，都崇拜，都需要，有那么多超能力，拯救世界
我只想变成JUMMPER，在景区关门的时候，为你打开一扇门，让你游览你喜欢的罗马

I used to be Perfectly lonely several months ago,luckily someone dragged me out of the swirl with a sparkle appearance.It is not easy to distinguish the timing is good or not,at least i can feel the warmth and good hope just like what happened in the very beginning of my life.

I'd never imagined that i could go abroad one day,as a proud overseas member.But as soon as it came true,i started to know this was continuous to be alone.

It is hard,really hard,to get used to it,notwithstanding it's been for years.To be outside is not a good experience,putting aside the diverse theories about future,values and ambition,what we have is just one word,loneliness.This is the biggest issue that each nomad faces every second, if one says i would rather have the chance to go out,alright, then i would like to tell you loneliness is evil,and you have to be together with it whenever and wherever,do you still look forward to pursuing it?I do not think you could understand unless it happens truly on yourself.

Where is the end of vagrant? Seems like a joke.

I still remember there's one dialogue in The Clash Of Titans,approximately:

-What is your punishment?

-I am punished by owning the ageless life.

-That is not punishment!

-You dont understand how my sorrow is when my love is gone one by one..

What could be more terrible to leave your love,to change your friends,to miss your home constantly in this world?She is the victim,so am i. The sense of safety, the expectation of long-term relation do not belong to me any more,that is dangerous,that is too bad..

I like such cute oranges, especially the sparkling red tie and handsome Chinese characters..In fact, i have to say, each single one inside is rather ugly with the rough surface and freaky feature,however, that is why i say i am talent, after the simple but intelligent dress it looks gorgeous, isn't it?

We pack these cuties and send to our lectures, celebrating the CNY,of course Mike and i do not have enough budget for this stuff, consequently we just beautify them and then each lecturer recieves only one or two, that is another reason why i say i am talent anyway....

This is my 3rd time spending CNY in Malaysia. First time i was quite emotional, and i still remember that night, CNY eve i hid in bathroom crying quietly, i missed every one, including my handsome puppy Harry. And second time i was quite ok, compared with last time,we several best friends sat together around the dishes, talking and laughing. Now, this time i think i will be a robot, nothing moved, just stay in room with laptop, with food, with friend, and definitely with assignments.

CNY is not a big deal for us overseas students any more, we become stronger and cold bloody gradually, it is just a holiday in our eyes and nothing more.Perhaps stock some food, buy a new shirt under this excuse, go to the restaurant having the costly dishes that never ever thought before, or have a trip somewhere and take impressive photos.

I am astonished that peer coursemates ask for hongbao from me..they only know hongbao packs money inside, without understanding the meaning of it, of course i will give them, but without money inside...haha

Before CNY,something was not going that smooth, but it means the end of glooms probably..I hope i can get a big pace onward and everything is fine.

Special wish for my family, healthy+healthy.

and all dear friends here and there, just healthy, it's meaningful.

Happy Chinese New Year.

Baoh

11.02.2010

I am lazy to write down anything,disappointing, prond,happy, joyful or sad. Just wish everybody healthy, and more. 

That i always expect someday i could encounter an appropriate opportunity to say bye-bye to all unhappiness in  the past 22 years,eventually it comes.

While the new year started, i was rushing my heavy assignment in studio with all dear coursemates. That was the worst moment, that the first thing you were busy for was doing endless assignment with tiredness.I would not like to begin with this sort of emotion in the first day of the new year,but it does.When the minute hand past 12 i could not help running sadness,quite plenty of hard times representing in my mind one by one by one by one by one by one by one like movie,something about relationship,about study,about health and meaningless affairs...On another hand,to stay up all night until 5am was good for me,that i had got the chance to glance the first sunlight in 2010. 

Everybody wishes happy in new year,so do i.Moreover,i wish everything goes smoothly,at least comparing with the period end of 2009...

This is the 3rd year studying in Malaysia,with the taste of loneliness,helplessness,sadness,hesitation, obsession...i could list hundreds of negative emotions but delighted experiences still account for dominant place. I appreciate the choice that study here,it is not the best but good enough. I like what im learning currently because it gives me a sense of achievement and challenge.Overseas life is hard but meaningful,i hope next 2 years remain like so.

For my family,i wish mama and papa healthy and happy,wish my puppy healthy and happy,wish myself healthy and happy. My wish is simple so please the god who is in charge bless me,it is really appreciated..

By the end, 1st day of each year is Ms Xiong and Bro Peng's birthday, so happy birthday and happy everyday.Mr. Bao bless you both with best regard.

多少事，从来急，天地转，光阴迫，一万年太久，只争朝夕。

敌人有的，我们要有，敌人没有的，我们也要有。原子弹要有，氢弹也要快。管他什么国，管他什么弹，原子弹、氢弹，我们都要超过。

不是东风压倒西风,就是西风压倒东风。

把别人的经验变成自己的,他的本事就大了。

打得赢就打,打不赢就走。

党外无党,帝王思想,党内无派,千奇百怪。

凡是敌人反对的，我们就要拥护；凡是敌人拥护的，我们就要反对。

马克思主义的道理千条万续，归根结底就是一句话，造反有理！

你办事，我放心。

你要有知识!你就得参加变革现实的实践
你要知道梨子的味道!你就得变革梨子!亲口吃一吃
你要知道原子的组织同性质!你就得实行物理和化学的实验!变革原子的情况
你要知道革命的理论和方法!你就得参加革命

扫帚不到,灰尘照例不会自己跑掉。

世界是你们的，也是我们的，但是归根结底是你们的。你们青年人朝气蓬勃，正在兴旺时期，好像早晨八九点钟的太阳。希望寄托在你们身上。

世界上没有无缘无故的爱,也没有无缘无故的恨。

天要下雨，娘要嫁人，由他去吧！

形式主义害死人。

一个人能力有大小,但只要有这点精神,就是一个高尚的人,一个纯粹的人,一个有道德的人,一个脱离了低级趣味的人,一个有益于人民的人。

Obviously it's fragile when to touch,instead of being seen strong or tough as you first face it.Oftenly a piece of song, a familiar monument, a same tastable dish or a word spoken out without thinking will cruelly take you back to the past,the best delighted moment you ever have,you know what im pointing to.

Do not easily take kiss unless you are sure that he/she is also mean to do it, at times it's just for fun but you have fallen into it since you wrongly think he/she has,too. Relationship is never gonna be firm as soon as it forms. 

Some people dont believe love with good reasons,those reasons make them deeply avoid from falling, i think it must be hurt when these reasons come,though no one knows what's happening to them while in process.

Love always lays dying silently under our eyes,therefore rather many seniors share their experiences that never fall into hell before another does.

Everyone is selfish, you were not, just because you didnt realize,however, the day will come sooner or later,trying to accept it with big hug,and finally you will find whom makes you love with is actually yourself,in the world.

Bored of getting flush and losing it shortly

Portfolio结束以后我们这些每天被不长眼的外人称作“画画的”才真正是放假，我记得放假那天距离第一场考试还有小一个星期，所以热火朝天的逍遥了几天，直到考试前一天才开始真正的动笔复习，这是导致我第二天措手不及同时考两门的深刻原因，不过虽然结果让人扼腕但接下来的事实是好的，因为又有小一个星期可以腐败，然后再用一天的时间迎接最后一门考试，这在一个月之前是想都不敢想的美梦啊

记得25号晚上11点钟准备背完最后一遍就上床睡觉的片刻突然阿C在阳台下面喊我，问我明天考试准备好了没有，我心想我又不跟你一起考你怎么会关心起我这个？·接着我就突然很痛苦的假设该不会是有考试改时间了吧，真是料事如神~~接下来我就疯了，原来11月的考试改到了第二天跟ethnobotany一起考，我个老天，两个最难的撞一起还是事先未经通知，那不就是只有死路一条么，所以我连一秒钟的时间都没用到就果断的分析出了这个晚上要通宵了的既定事实，然后阿C对我这种悲惨的局面并没有抱以安慰的态度让我气急败坏的跟他冷战了大约5分钟。

我记得那天晚上是这样的，当我开始气急败坏的跟他冷战的时候我头也没回的骑着摩托就往宿舍飞，他在后面喊我没听见说了什么反正我其实是想着回去赶紧把ethno先看完，剩下的相信他会帮我搞定~~然后5分钟到了我就明智的给他打了电话我说那我怎么办，难道要错过一个考试？他说我可以考完以后另一科在老师办公室考，然后我就又头大了，本来就没复习没储备让我单独跟教授共处一室我还考个P啊直接fail掉算了，不过该发生的总要发生，就算是我这个学期最后的一次倒霉事吧

大概1点左右阿C进门然后给我讲述考点范围，他一边说我就一边伤心，不晓得7个小时够不够看。不过现实中我发现我还是很NB的，不到4个小时我就看完了而且蛮有信心于是我还忙里偷闲的小睡了50分钟，然后喝了碗燕麦吃了个面包给杨旭催了个电话就出门了

我也没看出来杨旭得知我要同时考两门的时候到底是什么表情，反正跟我预料的也差不多

考试的时候我决心用前半段时间考完一门然后火速挪位置考下一门，可是就在我交卷的时候我发现这个想法是不可实施的，，，hakim居然检查我的答案还说要我再完善一下，看来只能在办公室考了，，浪费我时间

不管怎么说在办公室考也是有好处，看在我和那个办公室妈妈认识的份上她还在考试期间送了我一杯菊花茶，省了我中午的1块钱凉茶，算是给我这种不完美结局的一个安慰吧

从这个学期第一天到学校我就没消停过，每天不是忙就是忙，导致我非常怀念跟Din在一起的清闲时光，然后还暗暗祈祷下个学期的community一定要换成Din来教，结果还是空想，看来Din是铁心要带一年级了，不再管我们高年级的生死

我觉得学这个会让人变得很贱，忙的要杀人的时候念着要放假，等放了假什么事都没有了居然不晓得该做什么，又念着找点事情来做，整个把人往两个极端疯狂的甩，据说国内的相关教育非常之轻松，难道差距有这么大么···

每天都愁眉苦脸抑郁惆怅难得欢笑，想想自己的处境，还有5个学期更艰难的日子，怎么熬啊··如果再上个研究生，我是不是出来以后就40岁的模样了，目前本专业6个男教授中有4个是秃顶的，希望他们硕士毕业的时候是不秃的

昨天考完最后一科以后那简直是无比愉悦，让下个学期的魔鬼女教授见鬼去吧，先过好这个月再说··

i cant stop stepping onward, but im really exhausted,in terms of the mental and physical circumstance.Undoubtedly there's a long way to go,that's why when i start to imagine the future i cant help taking a deep breath.

Being student is a safe decision which may help you escape from the stiff competition in the present-day society,however,is there anybody able to figure out how is stressfully doing this? Comparing with work outside,maybe stress is even a bit higher.

It's been a long time im away from winter time,and that warm home.

On the emotional hand,i lost a lot.Oftenly i ask myself whether i can possess my own sweet part of love, which is not performed by others in the city.Or just ask myself to act as indifferent on this matter. I know the status that im in, it's so hard to solve this, as far as i can see.

Questions,a host of questions are flying over head,without appropriate response.

Another singer committed suicide,why so many people are bored of themselves,this world really gets problem.

Hi there, i hope you like it,becos i like.

 Do u feel better when move to the 2nd pic?

Would u praise the creature in front of u?

 Have u ever noticed such unimaginable cute claws before?

 How r u going to use ur senses to enjoy this?

Touch,stroke or kiss?

 Do they really catch ur heart?

 Do they really help u to find out their beauties?

 Does ur benevolence wake up at this moment?

 What makes u smile right now?

 Then do u know how is their life outside?

when it rains or snows, winds or sun?

Have u ever thought about this?

 R they dirty?squalid?diseased?germy?vicious? or xx?

yes, they r

so what?

Ain't u?

 Y not start to love them, as slightly as love ur friends, as deeply as love urself.

Y will u hurt them?Y r u always yelling them? chasing,hitting or abusing them?

Dont they deserve a peaceful life? Dont they want a clean,cleaner,or cleanest home?

Think about their life,wandering outside,avoiding people,looking 4 waste food,immoderately giving birth,

generation by generation.

They r not that type of creature that should suffer any harm naturally,

and u r not this kind of human who should allow them to suffer any harm if u r one of my friends.

 U've got the right to love them or not,

nonetheless u own the heart to respect them, or at least give a tolerance.

My mom is a good person, feeding the wild cats everyday, and until now their 3rd generation.

Other than that, she takes the mother cat to do the sterilizing operation.

It's a huge charity,she could do it, so could u.

The life teaches us, to be a good person, to be a useful person.

We all know it.

Thanks 水水，where these pics come from.

i saw this little boy cry, rather cute than at other times.

When he grows up one day, he must cry again,but at that time,as a man, it happens only when it's inconsolable.

A man's heart stands a wall, which prevent tears from the slight distresses.

Dont hesitate to comfort him, that means really sorrowful.

Sometimes he's strong, strong enough to proof anything that you want.

But dont forget he is a human either,made by tissue,blood and sensitive emotion.

Why not to pretend to be his superpartner temporarily,to give his that kind of sense of security that he has given to you ever before?

Sometimes he need it, much much more.

I went to Genting Highland last week.

It's just a recreation theme park actually. but this two days made me think about a lot, about the old memories here and there.

Especially when stayed in the bus, when saw those many amusement facilities, when stood in long queue and when the night fell down we hadnt decided what to eat. 

It reminds me something, that suddenly strikes on my mind.

I dont know why many people look forward to going to France, for me, i like there only because there's a town growing boundless dark purples.

Provence, if you have heard of it before, you must understand what i mean.

Those wobbly flowers might make you forget anything, anything that you feel unpleased, unsatisfied or undelighted. but still, you could realize yourself being in the world, the wonderful world, it awakes your energy, and all your deep deep desires.

Time goes by, some people still stand rooted, some move forward.

Some move forward or stay put,without any awareness. 

I have no idea which group im in,but i feel bad,when i think about the exact position.

The first second i reached top, i asked the old man who sat next to me, how does he feel, he said im ok, it's just, it's too high.

Yes i can see his fear, just like mine. The fear is a huge giant standing in front of us furthermore we dont know what time we will be attacked and how heavy the hit is.

Im facing death, this is what i think in the 130 meters sky.

I have only ten seconds to make myself calm down, but it fails.

As the resault, after i count the 10th second, i decide i will never ride it again.

I love travel.

But most travels i took were meaningless.

I know what i lack.

someone is fated to lose

none is gonna to be ur friend

everytime when ppl talk about u, the topic will always be lampoon, cos u deserve it

u pretend to win only with the help of others

u dont know how to appreciate it, and how to learn to be them

so next time u still think u may hide behind

behind others' strength

im ashamed of u

i dont know how u feel

u've adapted it already?

u know how ppl judge u

but u disdain to change

so u r fated to lose

and to be looked down on by every single one around u 

what a poor guy

ashamed, useless existence

    说到印象一词，让我着实惭愧了一把。我在记忆里寻找关于你的星星点点。该从哪里说起呢？说实话连你的样子都有点模糊不清了，除了那和风般的笑容，永远不能够忘记。忙不迭失的打开你的空间相册。原来你已经长成了那样的大男孩儿。出落得标志，利落。那样风致的男子,脸上依旧带着一如阳光撕裂般的笑容。笑的那样的灿烂，一直亮到心里。仿佛一切黑暗腐朽的东西在你面前都无所遁形。你还是那样子么？总是对别人报以灿烂的笑容？你还是哪样坚强么？在遇到困难的时候总是不会退缩。你还是那样子么？总是胸怀坦荡的容纳一切的一切？你还是那样子么？貌似能够看透别的一切，五脏六腑，心肝脾肺。而自己永远雷打不动的样子。因为我真切的感觉到在当下保持这样一份心性是何等困难的事情。

    那是在一个有着灿烂星斗的夜晚，天空蓝的就像是童话里讲的那样。我们的小包子要踏上独自旅行的路，那是另一个国家，那里的人讲着听不懂的话，那里的一切都很陌生。听说到过那里的人都要学着在寂寞中找快乐。但是我们的小包子是北方的孩子，他们踏实，努力，坚强，诚实。

    小包子只回头看了一眼，不是他不想看，而是害怕再多看一眼都会舍不得离开这里。。。。。。

    时光荏苒，一晃好多年过去了，你一个人在外面奋斗。闯出了自己的一片立足之地。我想再多的言语也没有这样的实是更有说服力。这是值得钦佩的，其间辛苦，我想只有自己才能明白吧。有时候我真的不明白，为什么要飞这么远，为什么要飞这么高，为什么我们不能安于现状，乖乖的待在父母身边，平平凡凡的度过一辈子。理由大家心里明明白白，我想说的，既然你敢想，并且敢做。你已经成功了，成功的堂堂正正。脚踏实地的走在自己的路上，已经足够让我打从心底佩服了。一个男人的忍耐，男人的担当，不是在虚度中抱怨。这让我想起了周璇说过的一句话，堕落是生活对懦弱的报复。

    也许有一天我也可以向你那样，用一抹干净，透亮的笑容回报境遇，哪怕是黑暗的。

written by:张金

Acknowledgement

Speaking of this little guy, i could naturally recall his larruping characteristics.

I hardly remember the first time we talked,and how we got to know each other even to be friends,but there's one thing i could be absolutely sure, that is,since we were friends, i'd never seen through him in terms of his experiences and individualities.

He is a mysterious guy among my friends.I can guess he must have lots of stories inside,it's just we couldnt tell.

He owns very good temper that's why i have to say he is a good person. He's glad to help friends without rejection. I appreciate his goodness.

Jin has his own thoughts, his mood is a secret, u may never know today he is in or not.I prefer talk with him sometimes when i want to share some blue moods, he's a good listener, actually.

After this words, i really miss that old time..

thanks for your lines, xiao jinjin.

2009.09.27 

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这是华盛顿大学化学期中考试中的一道真题：“地狱是放热的还是吸热的？试证明你的观点。”
     绝大多数学生用波义尔定律(气体膨胀时变冷而被压缩时变热)或者该定律的变型来证明他们的看法。
     然而有一个学生却写到：
     首先，我们必须知道地狱的质量是如何随时间变化的。所以我们必须知道灵魂的入地狱率和出地狱率。我认为我们有把握假设：灵魂进入地狱后将不再离开。因此，灵魂的出地狱率为零。而至于灵魂的入地狱率，让我们看一下当今世界的所有宗教。有宗教声称如果你不是他们的信徒，你就会下地狱。 因为此类宗教不止一个，且每个人都不属于多于一种的宗教，我们可以得出结论：所有的灵魂都会下地狱。
     考虑到出生率与死亡率，我们可以推断出地狱中灵魂数是呈指数增长的。现在，我们再来考察一下地狱容积的变化率。因为波义尔定律指出为了保持地狱恒温恒压，地狱的容积必须随着灵魂的增加而成比例地膨胀。
     这会产生两种可能：

• 如果地狱膨胀率低于灵魂的入地狱率，那么地狱温度与压力就会增长直到地狱坍塌。
• 当然，如果地狱膨胀率高于灵魂的入地狱率，那么温度与压力就会降低直到冰封地狱。

     那么到底会出现何种可能呢？
     如果我们接受Krissy Jones女士在我大一时给我的假设，“除非地狱变冷了我才会和你睡觉”，同时考虑到我至今也没和她上过床的事实，可知(2)不可能为真。因此我确定地狱是放热的[译注：此处逻辑似有误]。
     只有这个学生得了一个A。

 原文：http://www.yeeyan.com/articles/view/cotangent/58143

the city i live in, is not crowded,therefore i could easily realize myself,is

alone.

sometimes i across the street with big attention cos im

afraid to die,and i look out of the window when

i take a bus which is full of indian and malay cos i have to prepare

to jump out if it got any accident so that i wont

leave the human beings world with

these sick strangers.

i always think no one would know if i suddenly disappear from their life.

i wish i could settle down, somewhere the surroundings wont change, so that

they might be familiar with me every time i pass by,i dont want to be

forgotten,by anything that i still love.

im not a traveler,nor a person who has been many places,

but the truth is i have to pack up time by time.

im fed up with it very much, that is not a comfortable experience.

some people i have to say goodbye,some place i have to

leave away, and some memery,the worst consequence,i probabely

will gradually lose.

this feels horrible.when u dont want it happen.

time changes, so does people.

the moment you leave a group there will be another.

maybe they are different,maybe similar,

but the same ending will be like this,

say goodbye again and again,in the future,perhaps not too far.

trying to adapt it,welcome fresh, memerise old.

even though you dont expect, it must certainly happen.

yes i got the chance to see the world, within the asia zone.

but you know,i would rather back to my familiar environment to be with you all.

i know one has to grow up, to be accustomed alone.

well, it's just,

suffering,

hard.

i dont like the foreign street, it's messy and unsuitable.

i've been growing up in sjz, i clearly know that

many people dont think it's a developed city, however,

frankly, as a person who's been most big cities in china before,

sjz is the best one standing in the neck of the cock,

in terms of the street, the transportation, the convenience and so on.

i suggest one day you could get there, too prove what i say.

many years ago i like modern city much than natural site,

since i traveled more and more, i found there's nothing could

shake off nature, even in the man-made skyscrapers.

i cannot figure out how significant in the field that i study currently,

at least it's meaningful, it helps me to understand something that i've never noticed,

somthing really important to our life. 

im free.

so when they ask me my religion they look so surprised.

i've thought about it, i knew the religion is untellable, and sometimes it really worked,

but now i havnt prepared to throw away the belief of science.

i respect those who insist their faith, it must own a totally pure heart,

i point to christian, catholics, buddhist etc.

exclude muslim(some of them).

no offence, just personal opinion.

look at the world,

gaze,palestine,jordan,jerusalem,iraq,iran, and even the massacre happened in malaysia and indonesia,

yeah,of cos, and the separatism existed in xinjiang,china,

i truely dont understand where is their belief, only expressed in the jihad?

incredible.

i need time to organize emotion,after this nonsense.